Why am I going onto X-tube again?
Oh Lord, and I am grossed out by it too.
No satisfaction, no pleasure, just grossed out.
So this must be a trial that I have to overcome
and I will
Love you
Lord
Pancho
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Is it ever justifiable, to sit in front of a camera, run your hand up and down over your bare chest and stomach and reach into
your pants every now and then? When you are ready, you go in and bring out for the viewers to see and you jack it, jack it good for them
for their money's worth.
So I wonder, if you are living with your child and a single father, could it be justified? No food in the fridge and bills to pay, circumstances push you into doing this.
Indigence, this is not a reason I believe, to turn your body into a digital comodity.
While I am writing this, the same though paces through my mind, going back to that youtube video and watching that guy,
stroke his body, this just this, brought me to the point of no return. No ectasy, though accompanied this ejaculation. It was just a raw, hormal response to visual stimuli.
Come on you lousy "3G" modem, connect so I can get off and pretend I am actually doing something with substance.
My Brie sandwich is half eaten, Brie onions and lettuce.
Why did I come to the computer with this sandwich half eaten, is it because I desire to go again to this video, or is it to actually write something about my wish to public health.
The latter, is the motivator. How can I make it overcome these other desires? How can I sublimate this need?
Christ the Glorious King. He knows.
Suck dick, suck dick, suck dick. That's what I could go out, find someone to suck, and suck him off. Now why don't I?
I am an agent a perosn, able to choose, not at mercy of my desires.
your pants every now and then? When you are ready, you go in and bring out for the viewers to see and you jack it, jack it good for them
for their money's worth.
So I wonder, if you are living with your child and a single father, could it be justified? No food in the fridge and bills to pay, circumstances push you into doing this.
Indigence, this is not a reason I believe, to turn your body into a digital comodity.
While I am writing this, the same though paces through my mind, going back to that youtube video and watching that guy,
stroke his body, this just this, brought me to the point of no return. No ectasy, though accompanied this ejaculation. It was just a raw, hormal response to visual stimuli.
Come on you lousy "3G" modem, connect so I can get off and pretend I am actually doing something with substance.
My Brie sandwich is half eaten, Brie onions and lettuce.
Why did I come to the computer with this sandwich half eaten, is it because I desire to go again to this video, or is it to actually write something about my wish to public health.
The latter, is the motivator. How can I make it overcome these other desires? How can I sublimate this need?
Christ the Glorious King. He knows.
Suck dick, suck dick, suck dick. That's what I could go out, find someone to suck, and suck him off. Now why don't I?
I am an agent a perosn, able to choose, not at mercy of my desires.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
tooo lat
Youtube it iseems has these porn previews and I fell for them hook line and sinker. I even clicked on the link on the video and it was for "broke straight boys".
Apparently, it was a man, a 22 year old and 23 year old they can't pay their tuition so this is why they do this. To what extent it is made up, I have no idea, however, it sounds like their bodies are being comodified.
I have decided to log in permanently, so that I can get into my blog, before google.
Oh brother, look at what I have become?
What have I become ?
Even my cousin is online in Bulgaria and she asked me what I am doing so late online
I had to lie and say I am writing letters to friends!
Apparently, it was a man, a 22 year old and 23 year old they can't pay their tuition so this is why they do this. To what extent it is made up, I have no idea, however, it sounds like their bodies are being comodified.
I have decided to log in permanently, so that I can get into my blog, before google.
Oh brother, look at what I have become?
What have I become ?
Even my cousin is online in Bulgaria and she asked me what I am doing so late online
I had to lie and say I am writing letters to friends!
So why am I doing this?
RElly what I am doing online searching for "Randy blue free preview"? I am not even horny, I don;t understand me. I am really upset by the fact my father comes home later every night and that means I only see him once or twice per 24 hour period, such that I am becomming accustomed to him as a rarity and thus forgeting what it means to spend time with him.
He needs to know what is going in my life. you know.
He needs to know what is going in my life. you know.
Monday, July 20, 2009
Downloading Adobe 9
So I am going to send my collect my recommendations from my recommenders, those wonderful professors who agreed to write them. I also found employment today. So I should welcome myself to the workplace. OK. At the same time, I am also still dancing. Like Bill T Jones said, I am still here, but why would I vanish? Hmm that reminds me I am thinking of a better workd for vanish, where can I find it?
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Lemme pound that ass
So here comes the discourse on sex in public toilets. Yesterday, I watched this happen, thanks to a video someone had made of him and another man in a toilet stall. They were only visible from the chest down, so to me they were just bodies, comming together. Then again, I remember that they are people, with names and life histories and desires. So here, the one guy was already lubed up when the video started. The other bent his knees, arched his back to expose his buttocks and grabed hold of the others member. He slid onto it quickly, with apparent ease and they were interlocked, ass on ass.
Then began the pounding. I have heard much about unprotected but fucking, barebacking as it is called in United States, and how it propagates the spread of HIV. Now I saw it! It was reall pounding, smooth and fast, and it was in a public toilet, one of the places where HIV transmission is known to happen between men. Excitement mingled with disgust, awe and shock, which then was overwhelmed with digust, the type when you overshoot the amount of ginger in a lentil dish and it tastes awfull.
So I did not finish the video.
The images however, imprinted in my mind.
The dissemination of this video by its maker on the internet was to what end? With his face covered, perhaps he wanted to be desired by tens, hundreds, thousands if not millions of visitors who will view his post and climax, because of him. His annonymous fame is now possible.
To what extent did he surfing on the site that allows the upload of pornography (no free adds here) push him to do this, by viewing others? The implication is troublesome. Rather than providing an safe outlet for solo sex, where others are not involved, risky behavior appears to be prescribed the site.
Then began the pounding. I have heard much about unprotected but fucking, barebacking as it is called in United States, and how it propagates the spread of HIV. Now I saw it! It was reall pounding, smooth and fast, and it was in a public toilet, one of the places where HIV transmission is known to happen between men. Excitement mingled with disgust, awe and shock, which then was overwhelmed with digust, the type when you overshoot the amount of ginger in a lentil dish and it tastes awfull.
So I did not finish the video.
The images however, imprinted in my mind.
The dissemination of this video by its maker on the internet was to what end? With his face covered, perhaps he wanted to be desired by tens, hundreds, thousands if not millions of visitors who will view his post and climax, because of him. His annonymous fame is now possible.
To what extent did he surfing on the site that allows the upload of pornography (no free adds here) push him to do this, by viewing others? The implication is troublesome. Rather than providing an safe outlet for solo sex, where others are not involved, risky behavior appears to be prescribed the site.
Diversion
This is a diversion. Panchography is a way to cir(cum)vent pornography. Here I post my personal reflections on past experiences and I plan to come here when, when I want see him pounding that ass...
Questo e' un divertimento. Panciografia e un modo per venire a capo l'idea di scappare la pornografia. Qui scrivero le mie riflessioni su esperienze passate e prove con la lussuria eletronica. Prevedo di venire a questo sito quando ho voglia di vedere due uomini inculandosi l'uno l'altro.
Ca c'est un divertissement. Panchography est un moyen de depasser la pornographie lorsque je suis en ligne. J'y ecrirais mes reflectiones personnelles sur mes epreuves avec mes desirs charnel qui me font rechercher des images et des videos des mec qui se baissent.
Welcome, Benvenutti, Bienvenue
Questo e' un divertimento. Panciografia e un modo per venire a capo l'idea di scappare la pornografia. Qui scrivero le mie riflessioni su esperienze passate e prove con la lussuria eletronica. Prevedo di venire a questo sito quando ho voglia di vedere due uomini inculandosi l'uno l'altro.
Ca c'est un divertissement. Panchography est un moyen de depasser la pornographie lorsque je suis en ligne. J'y ecrirais mes reflectiones personnelles sur mes epreuves avec mes desirs charnel qui me font rechercher des images et des videos des mec qui se baissent.
Welcome, Benvenutti, Bienvenue
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