Going to sleep and feminist porn

So here I am again.. Though this time I am very much aware of what is happening. In my search to rid myself of porn use at night, I discovered a critique of racism and sexual objectification of african american men in pornography. The video clip ended with a reference to "masturbate for equity" and links to feminist porn.
Look at those images, I see that feminist porn is really honest - the video of a man on one site gentelmen handling was not flashy. It was a rather ordinary foto of a man lying on his back jerking off, nothing more than that. Since it was so simple, I quickly allowed my breathing to soften and there was no reason for me to feel so anxious, in fact I calmed down. The nervousness built up inside of me during all other porn sessions just disappeared. I did not continue watching, because I sourced via a third party and when I went to the original site, I discovered that piracy was a problem they had faced before closing down.Well, so I guess the men on the site were just honest "sex workers" , but it was not for me.